Jann and Tim put on a wonderful show tonight. Beautiful afternoon/evening. Sun shining. It was warm out, warm enough to sit on their deck. The presence of my brother and his family--people I haven't seen--except for recently, at the celebration of Twilah's life--for a couple of years because of an seemingly unresolvable difference, is a poignant reminder of Twilah's absence; so much so, it makes me ache. In the past, I only seemed to see Tom at family events if Twilah was there, because they were "thick." She was his greatest supporter and fan. I laughed at his jokes tonight, but I know it wasn't the same as when Twilah laughed. I won't enjoy a beer with him, 'cause I can't stand the stuff.
I know we were all feeling her absence. Jann served beer-marinated cheese, something Twilah had introduced her to. I brought a sparkling white Twilah ordered once when she took me out for dinner. We talked alot about Twilah. The injustices she suffered continue to be the main theme and the incredulity we all feel when it comes to her partner of so many years and so little humanity. (Thanks for the blog, Marilee. I think it helps because talking to my immediate family really doesn't. They just keep telling me to get over it, that I need to move on. How do you get over the loss of someone so exceptional and so loved? And the reality is, I don't want to move on. I want to return to the past; I want her to still be in our lives, the way she was before she fell so ill that the evil man took control.)
Dad & Twilah
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My name is Melanie and I wanted you to know how much I adored Twilah. We were both part of a breast cancer discussion group and we both started chemo at the same time. I got to know Twilah personally, along with 2 other ladies. Leah and I did get to visit Twilah for 5 days this past December in Dallas...a really nice visit with a spa day and a fun day with the her and the kids at the race track. She thanked me over and over when it was I who felt thankful...for the opportunity to get to know such a beautiful spirit that I loved dearly. I have some photos that I would love to share with you. You can email me; melanie at etw99 dot com I still think of Twilah often and hope that your family can somehow heal.
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